past

I'm so scared with the past.

the past of person who I love very much.

yes your past, dear.
but I scared of my past also I think.

no wonder

I read your story and thought for a moment, "I think your type is a jerk indeed".

I know what you mean, who you mean.

no wonder that we were together.

Just it

I love you. Just it.

Aih

So just like the movie we watched just now, is it a happy ending?

#14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work.

#14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet.  Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you.  But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.

I made a big deal with this one.

13

let's see, how unlucky we are then.

I'll make sure

"someday, if I have got someone, I will make it sure that I love her so much and my feeling to you will not as same as now. and if she doesn't like that we are too close, of course I will choose her."

"so do I. at any rate, we will make them understand. they must be understand."

now the problem is you.

if I'm not afraid

I keep sayin' this every time I got in love. "Being in love is sign that you will be so miserable". So this is the third time I'm saying this.

Sorry to say but, honestly, I am still afraid.

And what you should keep is, if I am not afraid, I'm not in love.

make it back

I had a.. paranoia maybe. about a memory. I judge every moment that be related with love would be a bad memory someday. not yet at least. I had so many nice memories anyway, I mean so many. but It's all turned into bad memories. Yes even just a little thing like a song that reminds me to some feeling, some atmosphere. It should be nice, but not anymore. Once, I had thousands pictures. and so many stuff that I can't remember all of 'em, at any rate everything that could be a memory, that could recalls me to the moment someday. But it's all just unexpected recalls apparently. what an absurd.

Now, I'm still paranoid. But to see you that sad is not that easy too. It's not on my purpose like never before. if I could, I'll make it back.

there is no such thing as coincidence maybe

I believe everything's had their own purpose. including when I deleted my blog unintentionally. I wrote many things about you, many things. I don't even tell you about it. That's got me on a little wistful, I wish I had told you. But what's so funny is, I tried to have one again but this blog just start with 3 posts and I feel I won't continue writing about you anymore. idk.

shocked message

hey, I got your message last night . that was.. shocked. need a while to reply, I was thinking to not replied it actually. well, you know I'm so upset recently. since we got a cold atmosphere about months, and you suddenly come and asking how am I doing? since then I was thinking of you for a whole time. geez. and you shocked me again last night with that long message. but, it was nice. I wish everything is really going well. like you wish. like I wish.